Sometimes He Lets It Rain

Today I woke up at 6:30a.m. (that is extremely early for me) I met my sister at her house in Thousand Oaks so that she could come with me to the hospital. Traffic was pretty bad but it was really nice having her and her handsome little boy, A.J.'s company. We arrived to the hospital just in time for my appointment at 9:30. I got my blood work done and the results were great, just what the doc wanted to see. I hadn't seen my doctor in quite a while because he had been out sick. I found out today that he too, has cancer now. He had his first dose of chemotherapy yesterday. He said now he is seeing things from the other side of the scale. How ironic. Cancer is way too common. I now have the exact order of events, dates and times for the stem cell transplant procedure. It all begins one week from Thursday starting with a daily shot of Neupogen(white blood cell booster), and they will take my stem cells the following Monday. More to come as things progress. After the hospital we met my dad and brother at Hometown Buffet in Simi Valley for lunch. After that my brother, Jamin, came with us back to my sisters. On the way we were listening to this CD called Women of Destiny...Songs Celebrating the Relief Society Declaration. There wasn't a dry eye in the house, or should I say car...well, A.J.'s may have been dry. All of these songs are so incredibly beautiful. One of the songs on the CD my sister sang at her Stake Women's Conference. I am so sad because I was in the hospital at the time so I missed her performance. When Kira made me listen to a particular song on the CD, I think it was on the way home from the hospital the last time we went, I couldn't help but bawl my eyes out. These are the words, I wish I had written them. The song is probably more powerful with the music behind it but if you're feeling emotional at all or maybe even if you're not, you better grab a kleenex.

Sometimes He Lets It Rain

She sees the storm clouds gather
The sky is turning cold and gray
She knows that something's coming
When she starts to feel this way
She pleads for intervention
But heaven offers no relief
And she would understand if she could only see that

Sometimes He lets it rain
He lets the fierce winds blow
Sometimes it takes a storm
To lead a heart where it can grow
He can move mountains of grief
And oceans of pain
But sometimes he lets it rain

When her heart surrenders
To the Master in control
Her spirit learns the lessons of the tempest in her soul
When it's no longer raging
She can see how far she's come
Through the wisdom and the mercy of the Son

Sometimes He lets it rain
He lets the fierce winds blow
Sometimes it takes a storm
To lead a heart where it can grow
He can move mountains of grief
And oceans of pain
But sometimes he lets it rain

(Tyler Castleton/ Staci Peters)
Vocal: Kathryn Nelson